GOD’S REALITY TRUMPS ALL
I have struggled with the contrast between what Scripture says and life experiences for most of my life, especially in terms of healing. This has been magnified since my nephew’s death on July 17. He was medically fragile. I had contended for him in prayer from the time of his birth to the moment of his death. An infection ambushed him and caught everyone, including his doctors, completely off guard. He was all right; then he was gone.
I myself have had countless people pray for my healing; yet cannot see. I have probably heard every explanation in the book for my blindness and the lack of healing, from the “hidden sin in my life” to “God doesn’t heal these days.”
In truth, I have had many injuries, illnesses and conditions healed by God, including repeated stress syndrome, anorexia, migraines, FibroMyalgia and more recently, an egg allergy.
I have studied the Bible thoroughly on this topic and have concluded that it is absolutely clear in this matter: God heals. This isn’t something He merely does; it is part of who he is. I can find all sorts of verses to verify this and none that give exceptions, caveats or time limits. Trust me, I have searched diligently: This would have made my dilemma a whole lot easier!
You should see people when I tell them I believe that God heals. They can’t figure that out, when I obviously have a disability. It really messes with them!
I have taken a step forward this past week: A deeper, heart-level revelation about trusting God first. It means believing his word and experiences of him over other life events. It has to do with recognizing that God’s ways and His Kingdom reality are far greater than anything I grasp or understand.
I told my pastor that I have had more than enough prayer for my eyes. HE challenged me: How do I know it’s more than enough? He is right; that is an assumption on my part. All prayer is answered; God is doing something bigger than what I experience.
The war between faith, in the sense of trust or expectancy, vs reliance on experience and understanding goes beyond healing. It is something with which we struggle when it comes to any of God’s blessings: Provision, protection, favor, salvation and all miracles. There are all sorts of doctrines and arguements to support the status quo and plenty of discreditation for people who dare to go out on the limb of absolute trust in God. When a miracle (including healing) occurs, there is no shortage of attempts to explain it away.
My point can be expressed in a stanza of poetry:
I bless You, oh Lord, for all that You do;
I will watch for Your miracles each day.
And even when they seem to be subtle,
I will not explain them away.